Friday, August 13, 2010

New Season

I'm not sure why I don't blog as much as I used to. I really enjoy it. I guess it's because I'm a full time mom with four kids, a job and my husband is in school. There has been a lot going on in the Snow house. We've went through summer ending it with a much needed family vacation. School for us starts in this next week. Madi is going to high school, Tiffany is going to Jr. High and Ethan will be moving on up to the 2nd grade. Chloe Grace is excited about going to “school” too and has already informed me she needs a Dora backpack. I'm not sure what to think about Madi going to high school. It's a really weird feeling. I mean I just was there 10 years ago and really, that wasn’t that long ago! I'm excited but get overwhelmed thinking about what this fall season will bring me. Tiffany is in pep squad, Ethan will be playing football and continuing Karate, and Madi, well she doesn't know what she will be doing but I assure you it will be something productive to keep her busy. Timmy will continue with school and I'll be busy as ever running everyone around practices and games.
Football is always exciting for us here in the south. Pre season started last night and that gets me excited because I know that means families getting together for good food, laughs and the game. Something I do love! With that being said, not sure why I'm so excited considering that I'm on a fatty Mcfat diet. I lost 30 pounds last year working out and dieting, and then in March when we went on our cruise I gained 5 pounds within that week.....needless to say that has snowballed in to 12 pounds! I started a very low calorie and when I say low I mean 1,045 calories a day. Did you know that there are 580 calories in a Butterfinger Blast from Sonic!? MAN I'm gonna miss those!!!!!
(disclaimer) Pictures are not in order. I didn't feel like fixing them! ;)

(this is what happens when your camera lens gets scratched the last day on vacation) :(

Do you ever wonder if you’re doing what your called to do?? I feel that right now I'm going through a change in life along with this season coming along. Honestly, I'm bored. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty to keep my busy and I'm very blessed and grateful for the life I have and that we are able to do things for our kids, but I'm bored with myself. I believe fully that God has given me special gifts and I don't feel that I'm using them at all. Honestly, I feel left out....Let me explain. Timmy is going back to school to pursue a degree, Jimmy his twin brother is going back to college to progress in his profession and Sheila, his wife, is going back to school to progress as well. I'm not comparing myself to them at all, I just feel I’m doing nothing to progress. ( and yes I know I have a choice)

So I have to ask myself, what am I doing? OR should I say, what have I done? I didn't go to college and don't see that that is an option right now. Honestly, I'm not sure I want to. I love to learn but hate school. It doesn't come easily for me so I have to really work hard at learning. I know that I can do anything that I set my mind to, so I guess the real question is..."what do I want to do"? I just feel that I’ve not accomplished a lot in my life. ( career wise) Sometimes I just feel I got to work to work and make a paycheck. I’m totally appreciative that I have a job and with great benefits mind you, but I just know that is now what God called on my life to do. I want to do better, be better, be appreciated and needed. I want to be successful but also stay grounded. I want to make a difference and to please God with all that I do.

"If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones..." Luke 16:10 (NLT)

So until then, I guess I’ll just keep on swimming ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>

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